[Tuesday | March 13th | 2007]

FRIENDS ONLY.

[Monday | March 5th | 2007]

You have now been warned.

I'm tired and pissy, plus the area around my eyes are red and puffy and it looks like I snorted a bit too much, kinda like Angelina Jolie a la Girl, Interrupted.. TIME TO BITCH!!

God, you know, the worst part of being a fan of something is finding cool people to talk to about them. Emphasis on COOL!!!!!!!!!!! people, since I heart Stanford, and the net is full of people who are just so stuck up and bitchy. They're all like "lolololololol i r twunny fore tch tch tch, i am gittin 2 lyk stanfordzorz but u kant cuz u only a-teen lolololololol." SHUT UP!! God. Seriously, those people are constantly bleeding out of their happy hole. Just overdose on some Midol and go to the corner and refrain from speaking. Ever. kthxdie. Bitch, you do not get to tell me who I can and cannot like. So just suck my cock. I got bitched at for saying Aaron was hot. Yes, let's be his fans, but not compliment him at all. BEING IRONIC IS FUN!

I am so sick of people judging me. Calling me a fag, telling me I'm too young, telling me I'M TOO LAZY, telling me I need to go to college. I mean, seriously, what is it with people's fascination of others' lives? I get fascinated in a positive aspect, but I have people getting all pissy at me because I don't want to spend four more years in school. Hello, this is my life. Not yours. I'm not gonna go to college to make your sorry ass happy. If you wanna go to college, go for it. Don't rub it in my face, and don't get upset at me. You are fully capable of going to college even if I don't go, I hope you know. I don't have anything against people who go to college, I just have something against those that feel that I MUST GO, or else their lives are ruined, or the ones that think they're hot shit and that anyone who doesn't go is a nobody. I know plenty of college kids, or college grads who should be shot. Of course, I'm not friends with any of them.

Go figure, there are people who have sites dedicated to anti MySpace. Haha. They say people who use MySpace have no lives. You know, a lot can be said about someone who uses MySpace, and even more can be said about those who waste 23 hours and 59 minutes of every day bitching about it. I can't stand those kinds of people. Not just anti-MySpace people, but people who troll around and diss everything and they act like they have a life, but what's more pathetic? Doing something you like, or wasting your whole life bitching about something that people like to do and trying to make those people feel bad about it?

What the fuck is wrong with The N? They are really making me angry. Do they even show Degrassi any more? It's been a while since I've seen Beyond the Break and Instant Star on any other day than Fridays and Sundays.. I haven't even seen South of Nowhere since December or so.. Wouldn't it make more sense to show original programming more often than syndicated shows? Call me crazy. On the plus side, SEASON 7 OF DEGRASSI IS CONFIRMED!!! The one hour season premiere will be in October, followed by a 49 year hiatus, after which, we get to see the season finale!

I was so tired all during school. It was a fucking CHORE staying awake on four hours of sleep. I felt like shit, especially afterward. Psh.

Speaking of MySpace..

WOOOOOOH! 777 hits, baby! TRIPLE SEVEN FEVAH!!! IT'S DANCE TIME!!!

We all sluts, we all ho's
And everybody knows
I want me some sucks and blows
Waiting for the bus, my dick has froze

Richard, if you're here,
Know that I'm queer
Have no fear
Let's fuck, my dear

You sure look nice in white,
You take my dick to a different height
Anyone has a problem, we gonna fight
This ain't an orgasm, it's a goddamn airflight

Today I got my 777th hit
But I feel like shit
Don't talk back or you'll have your throat slit
I found that most people are shit

Heads, they all should die
I wish I could fly
I can no longer rhy
me, so BYE!

[Sunday | March 4th | 2007]

Quotism

I NEED QUOTES!!! Funny ones, serious ones, inspiration ones. But they need to be school appropriate.

[Saturday | March 3rd | 2007]

Vacancy check.

I haven't been flooded with comments like I have been in the past..
So I just wanna know, who's still out there? I'm not mad that you don't comment. I just wanna know who still reads this.
By the way, it's necessary to log in/be on my friends list to read now. I've unofficially made my journal Friends Only.

[Monday | February 26th | 2007]

Two hour delay? I'm staying home anyway.

Yesterday was lazy, crappy, nauseating, with a few bits of fun mixed in!

I felt pretty crappy, and didn't do a whole lot. I just decided to play Ecco the Dolphin. I love that game. It's a much darker and sinister game than you would like to think.

There was nothing on TV, so I watched the Red Carpet stuff on E!. Honestly, the Oscars don't thrill me. They're kinda boring. I only watched last year because BBM was nominated, and consequently DIDN'T WIN. I'm over it, though.

At 6:00 sharp, I called Kat. That was a lot of fun. :D Can't wait 'til Friday. I really hope the plan follows through!

I played more Ecco. And found this interesting message board for it. And that's pretty much what I did for the rest of the night.. Watched a little bit of the Academy Awards and decided to just watch The N instead.

After Facebook/MySpace surfing, I eventually got off and took a shower and went to bed. It was snowing a lot before I fell asleep. It was pretty late.. like 1:00.

I woke up in what seemed like only minutes later,  to go to school. I was seriously considering just staying home, because my head hurt like a fucking bitch. I had things to go to school for, though. An important lesson in software apps, some other things I shouldn't miss out on, and of course, Richard. I knew it was a long shot, but I still wanted to check if Wrightstown got cancelled or at least had a delay. Sure enough, Wrightstown was opening 2 hours late. Yeah, it would kill them to actually give us a day off when we have like 2 feet of snow and the roads are pretty much slush.

So, I just went back to sleep, hoping my headache would be long gone. It took me a while to pass out, and I was afraid it would be another one of those times when I can't go back to sleep. Well, I eventually did. And woke up at 8:30, and my headache is still there, bad as ever. So I just told my mom I was gonna stay home because I had a killer headache. It was BAD. It still is. I took some Excedrine and went back to sleep.

I woke up again at 1, and my headache still isn't gone, but not as bad. I'm bored, so I'm doing the usual routine of things.. I saw that Domino had called be 3 times while I was sleeping. That must be where my dreams of someone calling me came from.. I wonder what she wanted.

Get this, apparently a Wrightstown school bus went into the ditch. Well, that's what happens when the school is too stupid to just CLOSE. At least nobody was hurt.

[Friday | February 23rd | 2007]

Magic Rick

It's been a very mixed day, really.

Well, today is like Friday, since I have no school tomorrow. :D

2nd hour study hall, me and Stephanie spent mainly running around the school, avoiding the paparazzi. Seriously. They're out to get us. One of them is reading this right now. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE. After that, we had a pep rally. At least we got out of class. ..Sorta.

School was pretty pointless today, and it would have been better if I had my EYE CANDY. Of course, Richard is way more than simply a visual treat. There was barely anybody there, today. I should've stayed home.

And that pretty much sums up the interesting part of today. Today sucked because I didn't see Richard all day. :( I thought he wasn't at school, but then at the end of the day, I saw him. HOW DID HE MANAGE THAT!? He must have magical powers. I knew there was something about him. <3 But still.. sadness because he avoided me. ;_; I don't think intentionally.. at least, I hope not. I knew he must have somehow been in school, since I saw the mysterious car.. or truck, this time, parked on the side of the road. And then I saw him. <3 He's done the mysterious appearing-only-after-school thing before. Magic, I tell ya.

Failed AP Psych test. Don't care.

Took a nap after school. Woke up with a headache that lasted forever. I've had a fucking headache for most of the week. I watched American Idol, and then the series finale of The O.C. Oh, wow. I'm gonna miss that show. ;_; I remember when it first came on, I loved it so much, and I was so paranoid of it's cancellation. And now, looks like it finally happened. Sigh.

I had an interesting dream last night. It involved some GJ friends, namely ED! And Richard was there, too! Yay! And speaking of Ed.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! You too, Mike! Even though you don't read this. XD

Me and Alex = Facebook friends. :D

[Wednesday | February 21st | 2007]

Can anybody out there feel me?

School is too fucking stressful. Too much fucking work to worry about.

The O.C. ends forever tomorrow. ;_;

I NEED THAT FUCKING PICTURE OF RICHARD. I WANT HIM SO BAD!!

Kat is coming here in about a week and a half. :D

Richard is a pole dancer.

Will elaborate this post later or tomorrow.

[Sunday | February 18th | 2007]

Digital lane

Today was interesting.. well, as interesting as my life usually gets. Woke up relatively early considering the time I went to sleep - 5 am.

I haven't eaten decently for a couple days, there isn't really anything here I like to eat. So I ate just random stuff, anything I could find, which isn't really substantial, so I didn't really feel good today. Felt kinda sick, and my whole body has ached since I woke up. Not fun.

I have been online all day, living every no-lifer's fantasy. Kat "came back" today and we talked lots. I love that girl. Did the usual "Sunday productivity" thing. I made some new Contact buttons as you can see. <----- You like?

I took a trip down memory lane, a rather long one, actually. I totally cruised all over the Digimon realm on Wikipedia. I used to be SO obsessed with Digimon. It's still awesome. I looked up like every Digimon and every Digimon article and every Digimon aspect Wikipedia has to offer. Wikipedia owns the world. Yes, it does. I did that like, ALL day.

I finally ate something later, and had dinner. I was pretty much bored today, and I almost fell asleep, but didn't. I was going to, but decided that would hurt more than help me.

Found a lot of cool groups on this one hot guy's Facebook profile. I found him through Strommen's profile, because he added him. (Ew.) So I joined them.

Kat and I talked more again later. We have SO MANY plans for the next month. We are so gonna meet up and do a bunch of crazy shit. We are both fucking excited! This is gonna rock for sure!!

Damn, it's Sunday. I have to go shower and sleep. But, only a four day week. Woooo!

Night!

Hells yes.

Kat and I are gonna unite.
It will be FUCKING AMAZING.
Wisconsin will never be the same. ♥

Know for sure that I'll be yours, and baby you could be mine.

Didn't have a particularly exciting day..

I woke up late.. 1. I actually woke up earlier, but I was so tired and achy that I just kept sleeping. I eventually got up and started cleaning my room. I dusted off pretty much everything. Not as easy as it sounds. I hate dusting and polishing. But it's gotta be done.

I talked to Brenda a lot, and really only watching TV besides that.

Drew came over later, and we watched America's Most Wanted, then played Super Smash Brothers Melee until Degrassi came on. Then watched that, and Instant Star. Then we went outside and ranted, and I took pictures, mostly of this random sign in my driveway. Came back in. He played SSBM, and I played SoR2. Then he got done with SSBM and watched me play. I beat the game twice. Go me. Then he left.

It was fun, and interesting. We came up with random new stuff. Including the fact that Manny will eventually be played by The Rock in future seasons of Degrassi.

I had half of my brother's pizza and there was some show about Lizzie Borden on Discovery Times channel. Pretty interesting. Then I came online.. for the first time mind you, all day.

There is A LOT of good music from last night's new shows that I really want, and are hard to find. Namely Alexz Johnson's "I Don't Know if I Should Stay," I succeeded in finding a 2-minute preview and downloading it. But, that's all I can find. On one message board I found, nobody is helpful, one half have a copy and the other half ask where they found it, but they're too stupid to post a link and instead list the lyrics. Morons.

I am so tired. I want Richard still. I want sex. I just wanna kidnap every hot guy and keep them for myself. Hell yes.

Ellie, I fucking miss you.

[Sunday | February 11th | 2007]

Comment binge time!!

Spam me with all the crazy, random, funny comments you can!

[Thursday | February 8th | 2007]

Difficulty

Going to school on literally no sleep is about as much fun as the amount of sleep I got: none!

But, it wasn't as bad as I thought, in fact, today wasn't too bad. But nothing amazing happened. When I came home, I slept for a few hours, then woke up at 7:20 and cleaned my room. Now I'm online and watching The O.C.

Hope this night gets a little more exciting.

In other news, Anna Nicole is dead. That's just way too tragic. And too freaky. Especially since her son dies only a few months ago, after she had her daughter. It's just things like these that make you realize that death doesn't give a damn about what happened in the past, or what you've experienced. Whether your life sucks and it's a coinicidence that you should die, or if you had an incredibly lucky life and death is only irony.. it'll happen whether you're ready or not. Really depressing.

So, until this night gets to be something more..

Ooh, the earthquake is about to happen on The O.C. Looks like my prediction a few years back was right!

[Wednesday | January 24th | 2007]

Check out my TATs

So, today during study hall, I had to do Psychology, and I came across this thing called a Thematic Apperception Test in which a picture is presented and you have to make up a story that leads up to when the picture takes place, what's happening in the picture, and what will happen in the future.

Well, I noticed the strange picture provided yesterday, and they even give an example of a story someone came up with for the picture.

Here's the picture.



Here's the example story that some random kid in the book came up with.

The girl has been seeing this guy her mother doesn't like. The mother is telling her that she better not see him again. The mother says, "He's just like your father." The mother and father are divorced. The mother is smiling because she thinks she is right. But she doesn't really know what the girl wants. The girl is going to see the guy again, anyway.

Interesting take on the picture. I'm assuming the weird looking critter in the background is the mother, since it looks to be about 120 and mummified and is kinda smiling. I thought the girl in front was the mother at first because of the devious grin forming, but I figured it'd be more suited for a rebellious daughter going against her mother's wishes than a self-righteous mother believing she can speak no nonsense.

Today I'm doing homework from that section and decide to take the initiative and make up my own story, even though it's not part of the assignment.. yet. I bet we'll have to do it for a journal later on. I'm kinda surprised we didn't talk about it at all today. Whatever. I was doing it during lunch, which is like a study hall for me because I never go to lunch and instead go to the art room and do homework. The only other person in there is Mrs. Hendricks, and I was trying very hard to not randomly burst out laughing while writing this. So, here it is.

So, this chick was at school one day, and she notices some deformed freak following her around. She was like, whatever, and didn't really make a big deal out of it. Later, she goes home and her parents tell her she's going to be home alone tonight, because the rest of the family is going to a shitty movie, and the girl is too cool to go with 'cause she's a stoner. So, night falls, and the girl's mom, dad, 17 brothers, 16 sisters, 8 dogs, 35 cats, 12 parakeets, 110 cockroaches, 3 bears, 10 slaves, 22 rabbits, 5 prostitutes, Uncle Sally, Aunt Jessie, Cousin Raphael, Maureen McCormick, and crazy insane neurotic donkey-gene spliced former foster adopted step half brother-in-law 7 times removed resurrected, reincarnated into Star Jones, all head to the theater to see the Grammy-nominated blockbuster hit, Catwoman, while the girl sits her lazy ass at home. After a few good tokes, she gets the munchies and remembers that left over Big Mac from 3 months ago in the fridge. She went to go get it and encounters that freaky stalker from school in her kitchen, she ignores and passes him and is like, "Whoaaa..." In the future, she hopes to meet more new random creepy people that, for no reason, reside in her house when she's supposed to be home alone.

I think my version is so much more interesting. Made some very minor modifications since the first draft, because I rushed to finish it before art started. Since now we get detentions if we do other homework during class. I hate art now.

I did the math, and there are 245 "people" going to the movie, and 246 members of the family, and there are 247 characters total in this epic adventure.

I showed it to Tom and Ella during 8HSH, and found it funny. Lmao. Aaron Stanford is still hawt.

Abruptly ending entry now.

[Monday | January 1st | 2007]

Yeah Happy New Year 20034

OMFG. I am oso fucking durnks right now. SOMEONE TFUCKIUNG TALK ME!! OT!! Uhm yesh. Uhh I am loving Joel and Ashley and Brenda right now. You three rox the cox in my boxxorz. <323333

[Sunday | December 31st | 2006]

End of 2006.

Happy New Year to all of you on the east coast! I have to make this update quick as I only have about 30 minutes left in 2006.

Well, here's where I would do a reflection, but I really don't have anything to reflect about. My year wasn't anything special, and it's probably best forgotten. But there are some choice moments.

When it started, I was incredibly depressed. I was into Jake Gyllenhaal at the time. And I met Bree for the first time on New Year's Eve 2005!

Junior year was kinda depressing. I missed a lot of school, and couldn't deal with a lot of shit. Summer came, and I was into Aaron for a while.

Senior year came and got into Alex. And hopefully something happens with that.

Watching New Years Rockin' Eve, talking to friends, eating, being with family, listening to music, looking at hot MySpace guys, and getting drunk. Fun stuff!

So I just wanna wish you all a happy new year! Hopefully 2007 brings forth some happiness for all of us. Even though the end of this year really ended on a sidenote.

R.I.P.
Tails the Chinchilla
2002-2006

You almost made it.. ;_; I'll miss you.

[Tuesday | December 26th | 2006]

Merry belated Christmas!

Given the circumstances, I had an amazing Christmas yesterday. Even without the circumstances, it was extraordinary. Me and my family did a lot to get eachother into the Christmas spirit and get each other the gifts we knew the other would like and we got quite a haul out of it. I am definitely thankful and don't take anything for granted. Not just the gifts, but my family and how we spent Christmas. It's a nice change from all the conflict.

I got..

Pirates of the Caribbean 2
Long undergarments. Erm.
The N Soundtrack
XBOX 360!!
Gears of War
Sonic The Hedgehog
The three Burger King games
-Big Bumpin'
-PocketBike Racer
-Sneak King
F.E.A.R
Burnout Revenge
Mortal Kombat: Armageddon
Sleepaway Camp II: Unhappy Campers
Sleepaway Camp 3: Teenage Wasteland
Degrassi Season 4 Box Set
The O.C. Season 1 Box Set
Second XBox 360 Controller
Gamer Graffix for my 360
Intercooler for the Xbox 360
Controller Cradles
Play and Charge kit
Pirates 2 t-shirt
PowerShot DigitalCamera packaged with a PIXMA iP6220D Printer
TAG All-Nighter Pack
Plaid pajama pants
Tireflies
Camera case
Ornaments
Photopaper and ink
A green robe
Tye dyed t-shirt
A new office chair with an ottoman
Xbox 360 wristband
A set of really cool shurikens in a little case

Unfortunately the 360 I got on Christmas was total SHIT. Some little things were missing, such as the little plastic guard that are on the plugs. I noticed because my parents returned it for a different one today. And I couldn't change the theme on it, either. I had to download the patch for original Xbox games in order to play Armageddon. Shane made one for me on Christmas, but it didn't work, so I had to do it myself.

I got the camera case earlier than I was supposed to. Before I got the printer (which comes with a sweet digital camera). So it's a good thing I already have a digital camera, or I wouldn't have been totally surprised when I got the printer/camera combo. Haha. That's what I assumed what it was for.

I got my PJ pants and the tireflies as early Christmas presents on Christmas Eve.

I still have yet to play with all my stuff! So, I hope you all had an awesome Christmas, too! :D

[Sunday | December 24th | 2006]

Yay Christmas Eve!

Hmm. Yeah I know I don't update much anymore. Oh well. I'll make a real update soon enough.

Just wanted to wish everyone a Merry Christmas! :D

[Friday | December 15th | 2006]

I don't understand

So, I've been awake for about an hour and forty-three minutes. And I leave for school in about two hours. I woke up at four because I was thinking I'd have more energy at school, then. I came up with this "experiment" during 8th hour yesterday. But the more that I think about, the more I believe it was a stupid idea.

I went to sleep at nine, but I wanted to be asleep by seven. That didn't work out.. I had to do another essay for Senior Writing, as well as Current Events.

I had another weird dream. It involved my house and the school being one building. Like, the senior hallway was in my basement or part of my first floor or something. Weird.

I'm really considering making this Friends Only. So if there's any of you out there who check this regularly and don't have me added, then I suggest you do that. If you don't, then I guess you won't get to read about my life and that's your problem.

I have been so depressed and miserable and pissed off lately, at a time when I shouldn't be feeling this way at all. I hate that. It'c Christmas and I feel completely awful. I really wish I was more into the Christmas spirit, not just for me, but for those around me.

I really don't know what to do about him, though. I'm pretty much stuck, either way. It's one thing having the ability to do something about a situation and not acting upon it, and another not being able to control it. And that to me, is a lot worse. Something needs to happen, and that's what I'm hoping for.

School was so much fun yesterday. I mean, lately I've been pretty okay at school. Haven't felt sick, or like I was gonna die or anything. But yesterday was fun. Kuhn wasn't here for Psychology, so we had Schaaf as a sub.. more like a supervisor. We had to do a test in groups of three. It was funny. After the "test," me, Tom, Britteny, and Jena listened to Alli talk about her sexcapades. Uhm. Yeah. It was hilarious. Lmao.

In Study hall, people were talking about toilet related stuff. Yeah, I know I'm mature. I had a lot of energy at the time. I just wish I would have done something about him, though. But I didn't He was asleep. I should have taken advantage of the situation.

Well since today is Friday, I'm expecting all my friends to be online and/or call me on my cellphone. ....

Yeah.. I doubt that will happen, too.

[Monday | December 11th | 2006]

And the days drag on..

Had a boringly fine day.

I am so sick of repetition, but it's better than stress and frustration.

Really nothing happened today.

Alex was still sexy. Lick. Mm.

So were other guys.

Kah, I really miss you. ;_;

Only nine days until Christmas vacation.

I NEED ALEX'S SENIOR PICS.

He's taken over my life, k?

You said that you would treat me right, but you was just a waste of time.

I played with my new puppy when I got home. And I took a nap and he slept with me.

Get your mind out of the gutter.

Talked to friends.

Updated MySpace.

I never realized how cool this song is until now.

The end.

[Sunday | December 3rd | 2006]

I heart the other room.

I had one of the best Saturdays in a long time..

I spent most of my time on my cellphone as opposed to the internet. Well, my parents were gonna go Christmas shopping, so I had to quick whip up a list of what I wanted and gave it to them. They were first gonna take my uncle shopping.

I was online and I talked to Megan and some other people. Then my parents came back and gave me and my brother some food from McDonald's. I <3 McRibs.. They dropped my uncle off and came back.

Kah sent me a text message, so I called her. I <3 Kah.

They were about to leave to do X-mas shopping. My brother wanted to go on, so I had to get off. But it was all good, I was talking to Kah.

We talked for exactly 2 hours, 42 minutes and 40 seconds. It was great. I kept going into the other room because the bed is so comfortable in there and I could see the moon.

Later I played SoR 1. I love that game.

Drew came over later, but he didn't get to stay for very long 'cause I had to go to my uncle's house at midnight. Brenda called me later, too.

I got even more food later. Yay. I'm gonna get fat.

Sunday, today, was fucking boring.

I talked to Megan, though. I love her. <33

I putzed around on MySpace for a good five hours. I need a new layout.

I talked to Kah some more later, and Brenda. I love them, too. <33

I had to write another fucking essay on "I want to make a difference because..." It was easy, but it took me forever 'cause I'm a procrastinator. I purposely dumbed it down because I want to avoid reading it to a thousand million people.

Yeah, well. I better go. Goodnight, everyone.